Farewell,
Our Sweet Sandy
Silence. Heartbreak and emptiness hit us
as we unlocked the door to our home last night. Our dearest friend and family
member living with us moved on without us. Her spirit was not strong enough to
survive another day and at 5:30 P.M., March 22, 2013 our world was scattered as
she passed on to a healthier life.
Sandy, wonderful sweet chocolate Labrador
with a heart of pure gold that never complained when hurt, loyal to all she
loved, smart in every way has left our home empty. For almost eleven years she
has filled our lives and yet we never knew that this incredible feeling always
present in our family home was because of her love. Each year Doug and Sandy celebrated their
birthdays in May together having the same date.
Sandy- she earned her name when we first
brought her home because her very first walk in life was on the beach and the
very place I find my peace, she too loved. Splashing in the waters, digging in
the sand and of course, exploring what may be in the washed up seaweed! Running
up and down the beaches as though there were no end to her energetic nature or ours.
As she grew a little bit older not to
stay in a play pen, she earned her stripes chewing up the remotes for our
adjustable bed. Naturally the remotes had to be ordered from a distance away
and we always had our beds stuck in a position not fit to sleep, for days at
time.
We had always had poodles so she taught
us well and trained us just to her satisfaction. We had decided she may grow
too large and would teach her not to get on the bed as the poodles always had
but Sandy had other ideas. Off to the pet store, we bought an outdoor fence and
fenced ourselves into the bed at night since she seem to find a way out of her
playpen and into our bed. That never stopped her as she somehow managed to
always get past the fence and upon wakening, our sweet Sandy would be either
starring into our face or fast asleep curled up against our chest or legs happy
as she could have been. Her independence and drive to never give up was as if
she had heard that was how I had lived my entire life.
Once we lost that battle, she became a
regular in our bed giving us less room as she grew from what was to be a forty
five pound dog to one that had become larger and weighing one hundred
pounds! Training was our next move so
Sandy and the two of us took our child to obedience school and the only problem
was that we became her student. All in all, we learned to take walks, Sandy
style; eat with her sweet head tilted as if to say “where is my plate” and watch the TV shows she most enjoyed.
Our lives with laughter and love were
endless and such a delight even if frustrating at times. Sandy never met a
stranger yet we knew that no one had ever dare enter our home with any ideas of
harm. Her bark would set anyone on notice or if welcome, her gentle mouth would
form a circle as in saying wooo and soft voice to follow with an expression of
her feelings.
Her life was not an easy one as she
suffered from seizures and allergies. I know that her feelings must have been
hurt when those who laughed at her calling her fat but what they did not know
was that she suffered from a Thyroid disease and although we protected her from
those remarks, I believe she understood. Yet she always responded to them
lovingly with a sad look but with a wagging tail and soft kiss. I figure it was
their loss to be so dumb to quickly judge without knowledge or simply a cruel
heart.
It was not much later in life she began
to have issues with her feet and was misdiagnosed as having allergies. For the
following two years she endured allergy shots which she did not need only to
learn she suffered from a Cancer and lost half her foot. Now in her senior
years she had to learn to walk all over again but never whined or complained of
the obvious pain or frustration. She was determined to wear socks and bandages
with dignity and the will to never give up.
Sandy’s favorite all time joy was to take
a ride in the car. Her middle name could have easily been “Go” as we could not
even spell the word and she was up and headed for the door.
Once she developed bone spurs to the hips
and knees she was unable to enjoy the excitement of chasing squirrels or even
taking walks she longed for whenever her leash was shook. But that did not stop
this sweet stubborn soul from enjoying life. I have to say as she sat on the
back deck, it seems there were a couple of squirrels that would always come to
the edge as if to say “come play” but with hair that stood up on her back she
just gently smiled back.
Sandy lived to watch the TV and very
often spoke to the animals on the screen or if she did not like the eerie
music, she would express her opinion. Her front room bed faced the TV so she
was regularly able to watch and had her favorite shows.
It was not beyond Doug to sit on the
floor with her and play their favorite game. Doug would take a treat and hold
it in his fingers at Sandy’s mouth and as she would go for it, Doug would tuck
it inside his palm. He would repeat this a couple of times and she would turn
her head as if to say “I don’t want it anyway” and as soon as she felt he was
not looking or paying attention go after it with gusto always to win! After she
would go for the treat she always wrapped her little paws around his hands as
if she would never let go. It was one of many games they shared and will be
forever missed.
Although she was not well and in certain
discomfort, she never complained but found the good things in life to be happy
about.
The last few days have been extremely difficult
again for her being unable to stand and walk on her own but with the bone spurs
we prayed it was a temporary set back. We made an appointment with her new
Veterinarian in hopes he would fix our baby. Again we found or feel that care
she had been under before was not as it should have been. She had her hips and
legs x-rayed learning about the spurs but never a mention she had the major
tendon in her knees torn. Her new doctor told us it was like having two broken
legs that she would never recover from. He gave us medicine and said she should
not be walking at all except to go out until the inflammation was improved. He
said that two to three weeks would tell us and if she got well enough to walk,
we may have her another year. He gave her a dose of this medicine which had
made her better before and we left the office. We drove to a pet store so I
could buy a sling but because it was not sold there I was quickly back to the
car.
When I returned to the car, Doug called
my name to the side of the car where Sandy was laboring for her breathe. He
started up the car as I called the doctor and told then we were on our way
back. They were ready for us when we returned but it was too late. In spite of
their efforts to revive her, Sandy just could not make this last journey.
Now our hearts are full of grief
wondering what we could have done different. She had bled to death internally
still never complaining as she died, while we were helpless to help our sweet
Sandy. I know that God’s mercy had been
shared with our innocent baby of almost eleven years. We did not ever want her
to leave us but her death came quickly and very unexpected.
Sandy loved us very much and had her
routines she followed regularly each day. One of her all time favorite things
to do each morning seven days a week was to greet each sunrise through the
glass doors in our bedroom. That meant she had to push the vertical blinds
aside, gently waking us to say “good morning, the sun is up.” That was Doug’s
cue to hang his leg over the side of the bed and gently rub her tummy as she
wrapped her paws around his foot.
Sleep was not possible while we mourned
her presence as each place in our home rang out with the silence we hated to
hear.
Today is a mixed day of emotions as we
remember all the joy, laughter and sadness your life brought to ours.
But Sandy can now run along the beach
again and we will watch for her each time we are there, and enjoy her chasing
that squirrel once more always allowing it to escape!
The days will never be the same and
nights unbearable as you are gone but your love that filled the rooms will be
forever with us.
Farewell sweet friend, we love you so. Be
at peace and know no other will replace the love we shared with you. Perhaps someday
we will love another but in different way. You are our angel and will never
forget you.
This year come May Doug will celebrate
his birthday without his special friend , Sandy, we love with all our hearts.
Sandy
Adkins
May 2002
to March 22, 2013
Thank
you for following,
Extraordinary Dream
of
an
Ireland
Traveler
Please come again
Rosemary "Mamie" Adkins
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